ninj: (Generation Kill)
( Sep. 12th, 2010 09:35 pm)
It's so crazy. I feel like I have no time anymore. I have breakdowns on a semi-regular basis which make me feel stupid and stress me out more. Anyway, all that aside I'm still alive and aside from being insanely busy am relatively happy.

Some people might wonder what a ninj day looks like so to illustrate have my schedule. I'm actually doing this for school purposes as I have to experiment with changing my schedule and routine for my next class.

5:30 AM Pry self from bed.
5:40-6:20 AM Let dogs out, bring them in and feed them. Put them back out because I am not a morning person and I do not want to deal with their happiness. Eat yogurt cup try to read a little. Get dressed
6:20-7:30 stop for Starbucks drive one hour to work. Witness frequent car accidents.
7:30-5:00PM Work-enough said
5:00-6:30 drive home. This should only take an hour, but due to traffic the drive home takes longer
6:30 get home change. Feed dogs.
6:45-7:30/8:00 Take River to dog park. Must do this as regularly as possible for both our sakes. this got moved up due to lack of daylight
8:00 onward-try to do homework/spend time with husband (Mondays and Tuesdays) or do anything relaxing until 10:30 which is bedtime for optimum functioning.

Starting this week I will be working OT on my Fridays and Saturdays off. Woot. Well, Saturdays I'm not in school anyway.

Finished my third graduate class. Only 11 more to go. Yikes. Most of the class for some reason Business Law was their last class. They were thrilled. I have a year left to go.

Work is busy-but good.

Dogs have eaten sprinkler control valves twice.They are costing me money and stress hand over fist. I asked Chris if we could get rid of one and got yelled at.

My earliest vacation date is New Years when I will be going to visit my parents at their new home in TX.

I miss Wisconsin.
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( Jan. 22nd, 2010 07:09 pm)
This week has been a good one, for I have been gifted with lots of wonderful things. Okay, most of these wonderful things are horse related things, and the stuff that happened today was not so good, but still read below.

RACHEL ALEXANDRA is Horse Of The Year. A GIRL HORSE. Take that all you stupid male horse fans. This year was dominated by the filly Rachel Alexandra and the mare Zenyatta. I actually, had a moment where I was disappointed because it wasn't Zenyatta. Then I had to pinch myself over and over because while there still hasn't been a Triple Crown winner in my lifetime I also never thought there would be a year when I could say that the two top contenders for HotY would be female. Zenyatta was named best older female horse and Summer Bird was best three year old male.

So, that was pretty sweet in and of itself, BUT THEN IT GOT BETTER. As you know, I recently went to Santa Anita to see the great and undefeated Zenyatta in a farewell parade. Where she obligingly showed off for the fans while on low dose tranqs because she thinks going out onto the track is serious business and they didn't want her getting too excited. They frequently have to tranq her when taking her out because she wants to run. Not at all fitting for a mare who is supposed to go and get knocked up any day. Her owners, being the horse fans that they are, and her trainer being clearly in love with this mare UNRETIRED HER. That's right. Look out 2010 Zenyatta is coming at you!

Plus now both Zenyatta's people and Rachel's people WANT to see them run together. This is like a dream. No wait, when it actually happens then it will be a dream. It will be huge. It is a race I want to have happen so badly. Various tracks are already putting up huge amounts of money if they can lure them both to the track for the same race. Oh, how I hope this will happen.

Now, I apologize for all the random caps locks, but this is really a big thing for me as I've been a horse racing fan for years and I am sick and I mean sick of seeing females discounted. When they discuss a horses breeding it's immediate sire, damn and damn's sire. that's 2 males and 1 female for every horse. Clearly, breeding only comes from the Sire. I was at the Irish National Stud and they said it's just because the guys run more. harumph. I can tell you years from now when Zenyatta actually does retire I will want to know when one of her foals and heck even grandfoals steps out onto that track. So I am looking forward to this next year of horse racing.

In the disturbing news for Friday I was awoken this morning, but the sound of the willow trees outside my apartment being killed. The 2 big willow trees that screened our apartment from the building across from it and keep us cool in summer were brutally annihilated today. I want to charge my complex for the difference in my electric bill this summer as I will now have to air condition more. Those trees were a big part of why I liked this place so much as they offered some much need privacy. In slightly ironic news: today we got new upstairs neighbors who chose their unit out of all the empty units in our complex because of the nice privacy proving willow trees. I'm sure they're thrilled.

I also was forced to flee to Border's to avoid the sounds of the willow tree death going on outside my door. I read trashy romance novels as I am sometimes prone to doing (I will never buy them, and sometimes they make me laugh) and apparently if you read romance novels in a book store it leads to middle aged men hitting on you. And you have to be very blunt for me to get that you might be hitting on me. It made me profoundly uncomfortable. So since the guy would not take the hint and leave me to read my paranormal romance in peace I fled. To all single guys out there: do not try and hook up with girls reading in bookstores. DO NOT. I hate that I'm timid, aka raised well. Because while I really wanted to tell him to get the hell away from me, I went for coldly polite instead. Because I was raised to not be a bitch. But don't get me wrong readers, he was not inappropriate. I would not have stood for that, but if you know me I just don't do well around guys in general.

And I just realized I now have to go to Target and get shampoo for my husband. Because I forgot earlier. *sighs*

Also dear readers, rec me books. preferable paperback-but really I'll take anything.
Has anyone read the Dexter books? I love the show, and I read the opening chapter of the first one, but it was so much like the show...is it worth a purchase anyway?

ETA: I should read previous entries and get my timelines straight. I posted about Zenyatta before this. However, I'm not going to delete my glee, because Zenyatta coming back is that huge.
So, it's looking more officially like Chris will be going to the Middle East for a year and we will be apart again. The part of me that has always rebelled assures me I will be fine even if I don't want to do this. Today, as he left to go do his four day shift at Yosemite I knew I was lying to myself. I mean yes, overall, I will probably be fine, but I will be lonely. We've already done a year apart and it sucked. I don't know what I'd do in Fresno-where Chris is the only one I have to hang out with gone. I'm considering options.

Option A: Follow in the footsteps of Chris and try and get a job overseas for a year. He's going to be making good money, but as long as I can pay COL expenses and my loans it would be okay. Japan would of course be my number once choice-but given that it's almost September I don't see that as being very likely.

Option B: Leave Fresno and move to LA, get a job there, and live with my Mother in Law, three dogs and the other fuzzy one. Not sure how I feel about having to start job hunting again. Especially when I'm doing well in my Fresno job even if it doesn't pay as much as I'd like.

Option C: Go to Asia and work. Not sure how this would work. This is my ideal option. The MIL has said she'll take the dog it's just the other fuzzy I'd have to worry about. I think working in Asia and being bombarded with my own new experiences would probably keep me distracted from the fact that my husband was away for a year in a place that frequently experiences bombings.

Option D: I convince someone to move out to Fresno and live with me while Chris is gone.

The benefit of Chris and I both being overseas for hopefully a year long period that would be almost the same is that when we came back we'd have the financial buffer to chose where in the country we really did want to live and to find a job. I guess the same would hold for Option B when he got back.

I don't know. Chris is getting responses from contractors for his resume, and he's almost done with Paramedic testing (finally). It's hard to know what to do next.

On that front it's a little less then one month until my sister moves out to Los Angeles and half of my family will reside in the broken state of CA where the rights of its citizens are not as important as making sure conservatives are happy. Nope, I'm not bitter at all. If you had asked me many years ago if I thought any of us would be in CA I would have said no. I would like to be elsewhere.

I just finished reading The Girls From Ames which was lent to me by Robin who had heard good things about it. It's written by the co-author of The Last Lecture . It was a good book. It made me reflect on my friendships with other girls and women and how truly sad I am that most of them have not lasted. My longest friendship is with a wonderful woman though, and we're not super close but I'm glad Lindsey and I have stayed in touch. I was very honored to be a part of her wedding last summer. However, other friendships like Abby, high school Caitlin, Ann, Kei and Christine (to some extent) have really not lasted even though I always felt very close to those people. Losing Abby hurt deeply, I wonder if she were to be alive today (I really don't know) what she would think of Chris and what happened. Abby and I always made grand plans for the future involving horse ranches and being little old ladies together. By high school though when I found out Abby was dating on accident (I was so anti boy she was afraid to tell me) I knew her heart wasn't in it. However, Abby never made predictions for my future. Lindsey pretty much had it on the nail "You keep saying you don't like guys, but I bet you end up married first." I miss having girlfriends even though I refuse to believe I'm girlie. They give good advice and I could really use some about now. If you have close friends hug them and thank them for their wisdom.

True Blood made my little fangirl heart very happy last week. Now I think I'm going to stop watching before my favorite character gets killed and my little fangirl heart breaks all over again. Not that I know anything for sure since my favorite character is still causing trouble in the books but TB is going to take a turn soon from the books so that's one risk I think I'll just avoid.
Ahhh. Crap. I hate you fandom. Torchwood broke my little fangirl heart and I swore off fandom for awhile, but True Blood. I should have known my love of vampires was going to suck me right back in. Possibly, I should re-think that last sentence. Anyways, thoughts are under a cut for spoiler purposes.

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IN RL news I'm having to switch dates for going home to WI. Well, at least i hope to be. There's a lot going on in September for Chris and I and I don't know if I can take time off, plus work is being pushy about how I knew I didn't qualify for paid time off. Yes, I knew. I just assumed I'd take unpaid time off. Apparently, that's not allowed.

Work is stressful because we're so far behind and there's so much to do. Good news is that I stay busy. I like being busy.

The dog and I have been on better terms this week. We're working on a strict schedule of walks and feeding, and I realize that unless I want to deal with a sick dog I no longer get to sleep in on weekends. Ugh. Life is not fair.

I spent time in Borders this week reading the latest book by Michelle Sagara. Very interesting. I really enjoyed it despite missing 60 page gap of which 30 showed up randomly in the book later. No really. The book went from 270 to 300 something and then later 270 to 300 showed up but the rest of the missing pages did not. So I was really confused for awhile. Tiamaris and Nightshade are going to be having some interesting conversations.

Bah it has suddenly turned hot and muggy. I am turning on the AC. In good news-Chris is coming home for the night. I don't know why, but he's on his way. YAY.

And: RACHEL ALEXANDRIA WON THE HASKELL AGAINST SIX BOYS INCLUDING SUMMER BIRD. GO RACHEL!!!
ninj: (Aya)
( Jan. 30th, 2009 07:12 pm)
There are so many possibilities. Things that I might half want to do, but nothing that I really want to do. I envy the people like Chris who know what they want. I still have no idea what I want. And so imaging the future is a bit scary. I know I can step into the void, and be successful enough to find something to keep me occupied, but what about something that I want to do? I have so many half formed ideas but too much fear to think that they're a reality.

Chris and I both know Fresno isn't forever, but I don't know where to go from here. I mean neither of us wants to stay, but where do we go? With times as bad as they are I am hesitant to just pick up and leave and go somewhere. I mean I didn't have a lot of luck job hunting in Fresno. This year was supposed to be about me finding a plan, but so far even things I half want to do I'm pulling away from. I didn't follow thorough on the library prison job because I didn't feel qualified. I don't know what to do, and I hate myself for sitting here and being upset about that but not actually doing anything about it. I just wish I felt called to do something.

Life in Fresno is turning to spring already. Something I find disgusting. I mean the trees are starting to grown leaves again. It's not even February yet. That's just freaking un-natural. *shudders*

BSG Friday. So someone (must get better at remember names) wrote a story where Kara was a hybrid. And I just think that's pretty darn cool. The final five may not have come out like I wanted it to, but I like the ideas of this season.
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